Turns out I was just a teenage girl.
I will try hard to remember this in 15 years, this time period soaked in hopes and dreams for the future yet dampened by the invisible chains of my present age. The feelings of not belonging in the red state in which I was raised and the closed-mindedness of some of my peers. The suspicion that most boys my age were not adequate boyfriend material, yet being disappointed when I was right. The close circle of friends who were always there for me, and to this day are still my sisters, even if we go years without seeing one another. The agony and the elation and the melodrama. "You're ruining my life!" was shouted at my parents more than once or twice.
I will try to remember this complex stage for Alexa's sake.
We can mind-meld (or however you download music in 2026) via the music that spoke to me and I can share "selected" entries from my high school diaries. She will know I understand. I like to think that this femme-powered music will never seem too dated. I might be wrong, but I'm pretty sure it will stand the test of time.
Everybody else is doing it, so why can't we?
Play when you are feeling: Sad. The forlorn tone of Dolores O'Riordan's voice will match your mood, but the beautiful music will help lift your spirits. And with lyrics like "Oh, my life is changing everyday/In every possible way" you will feel like someone totally gets you.
Hole
Live Through This
Play when you are feeling: Pissed. Honestly, there's nothing like a little hard rock to justify your emotions. Screaming along with Courtney Love will feel so good, trust.
Garbage
Play when you are feeling: Depressed. Shirley Manson's words are guaranteed to lift you out of your funk, even if you're only happy when it rains.
Alanis Morissette
Jagged Little Pill
Play when you are feeling: Betrayed. The quintessential breakup album, you can go through all the emotions: love, discontentment, anger, sadness, acceptance. From the anthem of "You Oughta Know" to the wise resolution of "You Learn," it's all there. Grab some tissue and get ready to sing along through your tears.
No Doubt
Tragic Kingdom
Play when you are feeling: Small. No one can keep you down. You won't have to abide by curfews forever. You can become president (if you want that awful job). The ska beats are uplifting, and the messages in songs like "The Climb" and "Just a Girl" are empowering.
Poe
Hello
Play when you are feeling: Misunderstood. I'm not even sure what this record is about. Sex? Anger? Dismay? General frustrations? All I know is that it was played on repeat a lot, and my friends and I related. The lyrics are largely open to interpretation. Which, hello, is perfect for your angsty poet heart.
And then there are the runners-up. The albums that definitely registered, and would be good companions to the others: The Cardigans/First Band on the Moon (for when you're feeling numb); John Osborne/Relish (for when you're feeling moody); Natalie Merchant/Tigerlily (for when you're feeling lost); Tori Amos/Boys for Pele (for when you're feeling obscure)
Am I missing any? What was your go-to angst album in high school?




UGH, I feel all angsty just reading this! Thanks for the trip down memory lane! I loved Mazzy Star, too. These are all so classic!!
ReplyDeleteok...so it is pretty freaking awesome that these are all 'girl' bands. i still listen to hole when i'm mad.
ReplyDeleteWith the exception of the Cranberries, I was right there with you. I still really really love Hole and Poe
ReplyDeleteI think I still own all of these (in digital format now) except the Cardigans! Nice little trip you took me on - except I was in early motherhood instead of HS!
ReplyDeleteAwesome. Loved them then and still do now... :)
ReplyDeleteYeah, I'm pretty sure I had all of these.
ReplyDeleteI was also a huge Green Day fan until they started wearing guyliner and thus broke my heart. I listened to a lot of pop-punk and ska AND STILL DO, LIKE A BOSS!
Dude. All of those albums? Sooo good! Great list, mama!
ReplyDeleteThanks!
ReplyDeleteGreen Day really bugs me nowadays. I don't know why, but Billie Joe Armstrong's voice makes me want to scream (and not in a good way).
ReplyDeleteGood! So they do stand the test of time with other people, too.
ReplyDeleteI created a "Cardigans" Pandora station last night, and it was very soothing.
ReplyDeleteI hadn't listened to Poe in years until I started writing this post last night. "Hello" is an album that takes me back to a very specific time and place. It's amazing. I could smell the patchouli in the air.
ReplyDeleteGO ON TAKE EVERYTHING TAKE EVERYTHING I WANT YOU TO.
ReplyDeleteSorry, that's just my favorite song to scream when I'm mad.
You know, I was going to mention Mazzy Star, but then I couldn't remember listening to an entire album, just that one song: "Fade Into You."
ReplyDeleteIt was dark, but with a very melancholy feel. Perfect for late night crying, make-out sessions, etc.I love these posts!!!
ReplyDeleteI love this post so hard, it really brought me back. I used to love (and still do :) love all of these albums! I gotta go dig out my old cd's now...
ReplyDeleteI LOVED The Cranberries. And I used to stand in front of my mirror with an electric guitar and pretend I was Courtney Love while listening to Hole. But, I was really a Smiths/Morrissey/Depeche Mode/NIN kind of gal. With some Pearl Jam/Nirvana in there. Ahhh..good times. PS I'm commenting so much bc I'm catching up on my reader! Tonight is your turn! Ha ha
ReplyDeleteThanks! I know, I got nostalgic writing about this music.
ReplyDeleteHaha. I'm going to have to do a follow-up post with all the male-fronted bands I listened to in high school now.
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